49 and Sublime

I'm not sure if I've said this here before but my birthday is one of those "holidays" I look forward to. In 1997, when I started working professionally, I promised myself to never work on my birthday. I essentially declared it as my official personal holiday. Luckily, I've managed to keep this promise for the past 28 years. And just like my previous birthdays, this birthday will be incomplete without a little reflection.

This year, as I turn 49, that reflection feels deeper than usual. Perhaps because I am a year away from a milestone, or maybe it's simply because I feel different. Somehow, I feel a little bit more settled, slightly more focused and a little more aligned with where I want to be. In short, I feel sublime.

Today, I woke up feeling grateful- just for existing and for making it this far. As a birthday routine, I checked my mobile phone for messages from family and friends. To be honest, as I"ve grown older, I've learned not to expect more. Whilst I used to take it to heart when someone forgot my birthday, this time there is nothing but acceptance and understanding. Life gets busy and people forget. And that's okay. What matters the most is the love that I receive all year round, not just on my birthday.

Looking back, the journey to 49 hasn't always been smooth. Just like the previous years, there have been highs and lows. There were times when I sought clarity, and there were moments of uncertainty.  But all these led me to a  much better place.

Last year, after feeling so frustrated and desperate the year before, something finally shifted. I found the job that I have always wanted- the one that challenges me and inspires me at the same time, and feels aligned with who I am. After seemingly losing my purpose for two years, I've finally found it again.

This year, I am deeply grateful for the opportunities that came my way on instagram. After so many years of creating content,  I was finally noticed by some local businesses and international brands- even with a small following. I am also thankful for the online community I have become a part of. Through this, I met a lot of very kind and supportive people, virtually and in person.

I am also grateful for the new friendships that I have built, the old friendships that I rekindled and the strong bonds that I continue to nurture.

Most importantly, I am thankful for J, my family and friends for being my sources of love and strength.

On this day, I wish for nothing more than good health, safety and peace- for myself and for the people I close hold to my heart.

As I approach the big 5-0, I am moving forward with gratitude, clarity and quiet confidence that life will continue to get better, and  my dreams will begin to unfold.

Tintin x