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That Dream

Last night, I dreamt about Keith Ashley for the first time since he passed away. In my dream, he was this usual silent kid, who smiled at me when I called him. I hugged him from his back, and asked if I could kiss him. He didn't say a word, he just moved his face towards me and I kissed him on his lips- which I usually do to all the kids in the house. Then I hugged him again. And that was it, short but sweet.

That dream left me crying my eyes out as early as 6am- until now in fact. Tears never seem to run dry. And that dream made me miss him even more- his footsteps, the way he walks, the way he speaks- everything! I want to dream about him every night, but I don't know if it will make things better or worse. I just want to see him again- alive and happy.

Keith was looking forward to today because it is their school's field trip. He was looking forward to seeing Jose Rizal's home in Calamba, Laguna. :(


tintin x

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  1. What happened to your sweet little boy?
    I had a similar experience. I lost my daughter
    January 17, 2010. I was in so much pain I would
    Pray to see her in my dreams. Finally after 4 months
    I did and it was so real I didn't want to wake up.
    And when I did I felt like I lost her all over again.
    It was heartbreaking to say the least. My heart
    Goes out to you. I understand your grief and
    I send you lots of love and hugs. I'm so sorry
    For your pain and may your beautiful baby boy
    Rest in peace.

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  2. H, Yomara. Thank you for dropping by. He died from Dengue Haemorrhagic Fever. :(

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